IF YOUR MOM HATES YOU, IT'S BECAUSE YOU HAVE A HIGHER CALLING

I never understood why it was so hard for me to find women that actually liked me, I always struggled with finding real friends that genuinely loved me for me. I don't think I ever had one friend in my entire 24 years where I felt like this was genuine. Everyone I always befriended always had a secret animosity towards me. Jealous and envious, talking behind my back, end up hating each other. There was no love found in any of my relationships which end up making me feel extremely alone, hated, and misunderstood. Although, I am misunderstood, I am misunderstood because I am not meant to be understood by people who weren't even genuine to begin with. They were simply here to teach me a lessons. That I have deep-rooted mommy issues.

I think mommy issues are way worse than daddy issues, because everyone automatically puts mom's on a pedestal, because mom's carry and delivers the baby, but no one talks about how painful your life lessons are when you have a mother who doesn't know how to love you, who doesn't love you, who never thinks they're wrong, and will always do anything to make you feel less than them? As a daughters, I think it's sickening to not have someone I can go to for when I want to shop, I think it's sickening I cannot vent to my mom about my love life and experiences. I think it's sick that I'll never get that feeling of mommy and daughters, and I will be serious. I am 100% jealous of women who had an amazing mother, who emotionally and mentally met their needs, and their mom is their best friend.

If you do have a mother, that loves you and shows it, make sure you are loving her dearly because a lot of us are struggling just wishing we even got a "I'm so proud of you" or "Congratulations." Many people talk about dad's because they're absent, but my thing is your absence doesn't bother me as much as someone who's present in your life, and has a lowkey animosity towards you. I don't see my dad, and we don't talk but I know deep down if he knew how to love me, he would. I don't feel the same as my mom, and I think that's scarier.

When you struggle with trusting women, it's because you have deep internalized trauma that needs to be healed.

Now, sometimes this is one of my biggest battles because I am just now finding out that I had deep rooted mommy issues after connecting with God. I always thought my mom was an angel, because she was more present then my dad. But then God has put me in a situation where I have seen true colors, and He told me that I had no love present around me, and this is why I was struggling immensely in the past because I never had someone love me before. It's a cold world. In order to heal this part of you, God will make you relive what you went through as a child, so you can grow and heal from it, because you can never let the cold world suffocate you. People do not have love for themselves, and this is why they do not and cannot love you. Don't be sad because the people around you can't love you, accept it for what it is.

You have to separate your traumas from yourself, because they do not define you. Your mom not liking you has a lot to do with her inner demons, then it has to do with you. Do not start not liking yourself because you're putting your mother on a higher pedestal than yourself. I know, we were raised in a control based environment, but once you hit a certain age, you do not need to listen to anyone's negative voice. The only voice that matters is God and yourself. You are the only person that you're going to be with 24/7.

God also gives you and them an opportunity to heal the situation, because what your hating mother does not know that God is only doing this to prepare you for a season of blessings. You are going through these traumatic lessons with your family because he needs you to break out of these cycles for your new life. Which your mom doesn't know anything about, because it's not her future or business for what God has aligned for you. But God likes to give people opportunities to make their wrongs, right, and only God really knows the deep rooted truth. I say this because mom's are always going to say that they love you, of course duh. But love is energy and if you do not feel it, it is not there. When God sees them in hateful spirit, he will humble them by showing them how powerful you truly really are, and they're going to wish that they have treated you better when they had the opportunity. God always gives people chances.

You were born in a karmic family who's job was to tear you down, because God is going to be the one to build you back up, and reparent you and show you the right way to love, will show you how to love, will show you how to release and let go. He will show you how to forgive, and to love your enemies. He will bless you tremendously because he saw how much they try to kick you down.

DON'T LET YOUR MOMMY ISSUES AECT YOUR LIFE ANYMORE. CHOOSE LOVE. LOVE YOURSELF. LOVE GOD. AND KEEP BEING YOU. IF IT MAKES THEM UPSET, IT'S BECAUSE THEY WISH THEY WERE YOU.